Daily Archives: May 21, 2012

Jail Blog – Day 15, Part 3 – Day TV in Jail

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I don’t watch TV. But when I do, I watch Free Keene TV. This comes on for half an hour once a week. Most people in here watch TV every day for hours. Tonight, I asked the group of drooping zombies if they were watching the fishing show on Animal Planet. No answer. I asked again standing below the two TV screens. No answer. So I asked the officed to please change the channel to channel 8, since it’s 7:00 PM on Monday, that’s the 30 minutes of TV I watch 30 minutes a week. About halfway into the show, one guy with a lot of seniority around here asks “whats the show on the left?”

I answer him “It’s Free Keene TV”. He stares forward.

About a minute later, he and another boy (who happens to always be burning with rage about one thing or another) storm up the stairs and yell to those below:

“I love how we all took a vote on what to watch on the TV on the left. It’s not like my 9 months here make any difference or anything. Good Job!” Then he slammed his door and turned off his light, closing himself off to the world.

Wow. Not being a TV watcher, I’ve grown sick of the Beavis and Butthead style huhuhuhuhuhuh’s that I hear constantly emanating from the TV’s. Today, for a half hour, 6 guys in the jail watched a show they never would’ve seen otherwise. They learned about market law enforcement from Robert Murphy. They saw criticism of the Free Keene movement, including criticism of my activism and antics. They sat silent, soaking it in. But they didn’t all get up and do push ups. Some did that some some guys saw something totally new that interested and stimulated their imaginations in ways mainstream TV never will.
Thank you JJ, Ali, John Ray, Nemi Jones, David Crawford and all who make Free Keene TV happen each week. Your reach is always further than you know.

Cheers =)

Jail Blog Day 15 – Depending on the Incompetent

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I am feeling frustrated tonight.

The motions which I handwrote in response to the news that the Keene Police is moving the court to grant them permission to destroy the evidence in my case were lost. I gave them to the officer on duty this morning to be photocopied and instead they were lost. I am crippled.

I was taken down to change out and go to court today, then told to change back, no court.
I was told that I wasn’t allowed to use the phone because it would be a safety and security risk.

I can get used to dehumanization to nudity, to groping, to being made into a worker drone, a slave to the state.

What I cannot bear is being forced to depend on others when others are incompentant. It burns me up, kills my soul, makes me hurt. I die insde when I can not accomplish simple tasks because I have been made to depend on another who can’t or wont do what he says.
I live for productivity. The guys who thrive in here are the Beavis and Butthead types, the unthinking, unquestioning, giggling unproductive doofises who think they are on a vacation on the communities dime.

I think on self direction, on the self determination, on piling successes, setting and stretching goals, pushing myself to do more than I thought possible.

If my spirit is crushed by my jail experience, it will be because I was not able to do. And because I am surrounded by people who have the “shrug” attitude. They are my captors and my peers while I am here. I moved to the Shire to be around people with an “I can do it” attitude and for the last 15 days and the next 35, I am surrounded by an attitude that says “why do, when you can stare at a TV?”

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

This shall pass….